Tuesday, January 26, 2010

my blog

so....i decided to start a blog....not quite sure what I am going to do on it but it's a good outlet for my writing passion. So i have so far posted two poems I wrote a few years ago and an aritcle I wrote - my aim for my blog is just to share my experiences as a mommy and to share my poems and articles. I hope you enjoy my postings....watch this space!

LET GO AND LET GOD

Have you ever had one of those days, where it feels as if everything and everyone is against you? You wake up in the morning and the dog gives you a dirty look cause you accidentally stood on her tail, your milk for your breakfast is sour; your brother is blaming world hunger on you and your parents are nodding their heads in agreement no matter how absurd his accusations get. This is the start of a bad day and on top of it God is nowhere to be seen or so you think?
“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up and when the time comes.” Mathew 6:34 (The Message)

God has already cleared the path for you today. He knows the bad day you are about to have and he has prepared the path so you can handle it. God doesn’t lead you into
anything he hasn’t already been through. Sometimes it feels as if God is not there because you are waiting for him to arrive when in fact he never left!
Christians get so caught up in their daily activities, it is a good or a bad day that they seem to forget one tiny detail. God, who created the universe and the very body that you and I live and breath in, is in control. If this is so and we recognize this, then why do so many of us still try to take control of our own lives? Who would you rather have driving your car? An eighteen-year-old daredevil who just got his license or the person who invented the Ferrari?
Obvious answer hey? So then who would you rather have driving the boat of your life? An inexperienced human whose been living in your body for an odd-teen years or the God of the universe who created you and your body and has laid out a plan for your life before you were even born? Psalms 139. God gives each one of us a choice – to let him drive our boat or to do it ourselves? If you choose to let God steer your boat the first thing you have to do is let go and let God.
Letting go and letting God means handing the wheel over to God putting him in control. Imagine you are standing on the edge of a huge cliff. You look below and you can’t see the bottom you know it’s there and you know God is waiting at the bottom to catch you but you can’t see him, so do you jump?
The cliff represents control over your own life, its solid, you can see it and you know it’s safe. The edge represents a choice, to jump or not. The jump represents the unknown, trusting in God to catch you and take control of your life. But first you have to let him. You have to jump. Jumping is probably the scariest, hardest and most rewarding thing you can do in your life. Giving yourself totally over to God and trusting him to take control of you life. Change is scary, entering into the unknown is scary and hard but once you jump you let go of worry, anxiety and doubt and you just know that God will take care of you. You don’t have to worry about when your next meal will come from cause God already knows and he will provide it for you -- this is rewarding.
Trusting in God isn’t beings a coward or a cop-out as many people might think and it certainly doesn’t mean that you don’t have to work to get where you want or where God wants you to be, it just means you don’t have to worry about it. God will take you where he wants you to be and provide all your wants and needs. All you have to do is let go and let God. Mathew 6 vs. 26-38
This brings us to faith. Faith is in fact the basis of Christianity. Jumping off the cliff is an act of faith. You are jumping into the unknown and trusting someone you cannot see.
“What is faith? It is the confident assurance that what we hope for is going to happen. It is the evidence of things we cannot yet see” Heb 11:1
“By faith we understand that the entire universe was formed at God’s command, that what we now see did not come from anything that can be seen.” Heb 11:3

God created the universe, we cannot see God but we know he is there – how? Cause we can see the effects of God. You cannot see the wind but you can see the effects of the wind.
If we realize this and acknowledge that the universe, our world – earth as we see it, feel it, and live in it was created with something we cannot see but we can see the evidence of cause we are living in it. Why are we still so scared to jump?

I REMEMBER...

The trees sway in the wind
your soft breathe caressing
it’s leaves. The suns rays –
your glory and grace. The
rain – the tear drops that
fall from your heavenly face.
Your anger violent as
thunder and lightning, never
directed, fades like blue
sky before a thunderstorm.

You are the moon and stars,
always there but not always
seen, your love as great as
the sand on the shore. The
crashing waves – our sins –
crash down on your shore.
The clouds starting to brew.
The sun’s rays condense
the once fallen tears and
now crashing waves.

I remember…
The rain, once fallen for me
The sun, that shines on me
The wind, caressing my body
The waves, that have never
stopped crashing.
The moon and stars, never
left my presence but sight.
The lightning and thunder
never directed at my life.

THE LOVE OF THE UNWORTHY

Take me to the place I want to go
The place where things seem to be ok
even when the world is falling apart
I know you will be there from the start

You took me deeper into you
you have seen my soul, my life for you
my life is a book which you foretold
the cover is nothing but a mold

You never wanted anything from me
except the love you give to me
I never asked you for the world
it’s just a gift you give to me

You are the author of my life
the director of my soul
you are the only reason my life is whole
and I only want to be with you